Friday, June 09, 2006

Freedom

It's finally over. Four years of the torture that is engineering have finally ended. And to all those who were expecting a certain cliche, no, it does not feel like just yesterday when I was a mere fresher wondering what the world of engineering had in store for me.

It's still difficult to get used to the freedom this entails. Strange feelings, which are only just beginning to sink in, even though it's been 3 days. Here are some of them:

There's a conspicuous lack of guilt about not studying for some exam, the sheer exhilaration of having no assignments to write, and the knowledge that those kind of exams and those weird assignments will never come again.

Bit of anxiety about what the future holds - visa interview on the 17th, skilling up with all the things I'll need to learn to survive on my own in the US, getting things set up properly. The odd combination of slight fear and confident expectation that comes from knowing that for the first time, you'll be going it completely alone, on the other side of the planet from the people who were always there earlier.

It's also suddenly sinking in that I basically have two more months with my family. After that, I'm not going to be seeing them for a long time.

You know what they say about absence making the heart grow fonder? The expectation of absence does that too.

On the other hand, it's still two whole months. Plenty of time to freak out and revel in the sheer joy of living for a bit.

I think I'll go and do some of that revelling now. :D

PS: GO BRAZIL!

6 comments:

karkaremtg said...

good on you dude.
cliche alert. it seems like just yesterday when the two of us were walking in the building compound chatting away. do you realize that that was like FIVE years ago?
i want that back!

Anonymous said...

Congrats!

But Brazil isn't going to win anyway. Seldom has it won a world cup in Europe :-p .

Javed said...

Hey Nadeem, great to hear from you, thank you for your generous comment. I'm just ashamed our only point of contact is each other's blogs! Congratulations on finishing up!

PS. GO ENGLAND!

Anonymous said...

Congratualtions :)
PS: Argentina

Deogolwulf said...

Congratulations and good luck!

Nadeem Mohsin said...

Thanks a lot. I'm rather honored by the comment, actually. Love your blog.

Yeah I know, it's extremely cliched, but this is a good way to mock cliches and the associated culture... :D